Sunday, August 30, 2015

Day 226 Kauffmans


Fr. Lt to Rt. starting in back Lynn, Cheryl, Sarah, Wanita, Beth, Judy, Christine, Rosita

August 30, 2015
Day 226

Uncle Masty, Me, Cheryl
I love the Kauffmans. Tonight we had an impromptu Family reunion in our backyard. Masty and Fianna Blank, Lynn's uncle and aunt, along with their wonderful daughters, Rosita and Christine were in the area for a Blank reunion. Lynn's uncle and Aunt, Titus and Barb, suggested a get together. For those of us in the area, we have been trying to be opportunist with our close proximity and do this more often. And, we were game for a bit of spontaneity! The Kauffmans are excellent with this.



Fr. Lt to Rt. Barb, Titus, Fianna, Elva, Judy
The night was lovely with the weather in complete obedience. My husband's mother was raised and born in Intercourse, PA. Her family is loving and accepting, an overflow of blessings. From 1986 till 2015, I have been fortunate to be with this family almost every two years at their reunions. These are heartwarming, encouraging, enlightening and times of remembrance for those who have passed over the border of life.

Pearl, Mandy, Geoff, Andrew, Owen, Jesse
Reunions often run their course with the younger generation not interested in keeping in touch. But the beauty of the Kauffmans' reunions is that just the opposite is occurring. The young bucks are relating and enjoying their time and tonight was no exception. All of us laughed, spoke of deep and abiding things and deepened our relationships. This is a perfect summer night at its best. Families matter!       



Saturday, August 29, 2015

Day 225 Plan Changer!

Pearl Beiler's Family-She and Kevin are blessed
August 29, 2015
Day 225

Plans, they always change and tonight is no exception. My plan is to do some things for the school year. And of course I want to do 8 hours of work in a 2 hour time frame, cram, cram, cram. But instead I am being beckoned by my cousin in love to do the right thing. Pearl Beiler has taught me so much since I met her back in the mid 80's. Pearl has taught me to love, and to love well. Tonight love calls her forward and she is dragging me along. My plans have to change.

I will right myself and walk and will not need for her to drag me tonight. And I will go happily with this woman who has moved mountains for many. You see, my talk many times does not match my walk. And it is a woman such as Pearl Beiler who silently (sometimes not so) calls me to consistency. Tonight my plans will take a 180 degrees turn.  I even had the nerve to ask her how long are we going to be tonight....She says to me, in that very Pearl way, "we'll see."

Thank you God for patient sisters, such as Pearl, who love me despite me and encourage me to reconfigure plans. May her new year, having completed another solid year just yesterday, be filled with immeasurable joy! I love you Pearl Beiler!

Friday, August 28, 2015

Day 224 Oh How He Speaks


August 28, 2015
Day 224

I am so fortunate. He speaks to me. He has since I was five years old. The things He says to me always lead me in good directions. Run, Lynne, run. And I do. No, Lynne, do not go there. And I do not. As a child I listen to what He says and I do not put up a fuss. Come to Him like a child, maybe that is what it means. Lynne, you do not have to do that to have fun, just enjoy what is around you. Friends would tell me to party more, then maybe I would  have more friends. No, I am content with the load of friends I have, I will not party for that.

He gives me a contentment that only He can give. I take it and I enjoy it. I remember thinking of Him in my youth, meditating on Him, and my heart would fly to places full of majesty. Watch, Lynne, a good organization will most always fizzle from its principles, beware of that Lynne. That young man who is spinning circles around you with his words and smooth voice, don't buy it Lynne. No, Lynne, when that young man comes back to college you are not to date him. In fact, Lynne, today is the end, and no, you do not have to call and tell him that. He has made himself perfectly clear, Lynne. And so shall you.

Lynne, this man who you do not think is your type will be your husband. I am giving you what you need and you are going to really then want him. Almost thirty years later I shudder to think of all I would not have, had I not listened to Him about my lifelong partner. Lynne, you are to trust and depend on me solely, not on your husband. He is to do the same with me. Encourage him to run the race with perseverance but He is not your all in all. I am!

How do I know He is real? No one, to date, speaks so clearly, so gently, so convic-tin-gly, so purposefully into my life as He has. His words to me line up with His character. I continue to learn of  Him as I go deep into the ancient text He wrote. He leads me to wonderful healing places. The people that misunderstand me, that hurt me, He simply encourages me to love them back. And He even provides the love. He is consistent with all He says.

He provides me with dreams that navigate me through hard times. He gives me peace when there is no peace in my circumstances. He listens to me and answers me. I know His voice.

He and I look at each other when those who do not understand Him have the same ole questions. He helps me see how uncreative unbelief is. It swirls around the same questions that people continue to have. I have yet to hear a new question. His answers amaze me they are so creative.

He speaks to me and the other day I cry when my friend, Jenifer Snider, shares with me what God has spoken to her on a silent retreat. I cry because He says the same exact things to me. I love when He does this to His people. We connect in ways money, similarity of personality, common interests etc. do not know how to connect. We know one another. And those who know His love only want to love more, not less. We refuse to be pulled to the dark side.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Day 233 Say What You Mean And Mean What You Say

Nicole Suzanne uses words wisely....

August 27, 2015
Day 233

When we talk we use words. (I am the high commander of the obvious) We use them based on what we know their meaning is and we are attempting to match them to our thoughts. But my word choices often betray my thoughts. Have you ever seen the Wind Tunnel Money Machine? The goal is to grab as much money in the wind tunnel? Have a look - https://youtu.be/Izmf_hGr0fk . This is me with words. I am grabbing for words swirling all around and just grabbing. Is it any wonder then that I am amazed at what you think you heard me say and the complete disconnect of what I really meant? So often, in fact, 99 percent of the time, it is my fault and not yours. I am a sloppy speaker and unfortunately it is a result of sloppy thinking. I might have just grabbed the word that was closest yet not the word that was the most fitting. To move in a direction of clarity is a real need, complete intentionality is so important. And so this is my pursuit. But it is hard work.

Have you ever listened to one of Nicole's dreams?
I have endeavored to increase my vocabulary ever since my early 20's. Many times I would have a dictionary in hand, especially, while reading Russian novels. (just go ahead and ask me what they are....it's really not that impressive) This was only helpful if I used the word that I had just learned. But oft it did not go so well. The word was apt and fitting but not for the moment. The recipient would look at me like I was wearing over-sized shoulder pads with big puffy hair, just a tad out of place.

I am also trying to think before I speak. But, I should just give up on this one, it's boring. It means taking time. Speed in thought, speed in action, speed in deed (we are not necessarily talking "good" deed) often is my priority. But, this speed drives me quickly to the wrong place, wrong word, and wrong thought. I am on your left, in a huff, passing you to reach the stop light faster. Therefore, I do have many accidents.


She is something
I love words. To sit and look at a dictionary with a cup of tea on a rainy day, well, what more could one ask for. Look at her, you murmur, in sarcasm, she should have the right word for every moment. True that. But have you been to my house on a rainy day lately? Just peek in and look at me. You'll probably catch me slouching with my mouth wide open.





She is a good listener.
To choose the correct word choice for the current thought is difficult. I see words swimming all around me in a deep lake full of choices. I want to be the best fisherwoman.The problem is, I hate fishing.

But I will remain in pursuit of clarity and continue to at least "think" of working on expanding my vocabulary, my word choice and slowing down. Until then, I am begging God for grace, cause baby, it's not looking good.


Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Day 232 Bowl Full Of Mush

August 27,  2015
Day 232


Early morning exercises are awesome but by the end of the day my mind is a bowl of mush. Especially since we went to Just Mom's and we ordered bacon and cheese french fries. Now my mind is a container of misdirected mush.

Good night.

Week Two: Day Three Continuum...Thank You List

Wednesday, August 27, 2015
215. Thank you for the breath that I am breathing. ~Francesca Censurato (She ismoving to Ohio! What an amazing woman to our family. She is our very own intercessor and she to other families is the same.)
216. Thank you for the colors that my eyes see.  ~Francesca Censurato  (She suffers with a lack of poor eyesight)
217. Thank you for people like Lynne in my life. ~Francesca Censurato (This really feels like a brag moment....sorry....)
218. Thank you for the people that love me that let me love them. ~Francesca Censurato
219. Thank you for God. ~Francesca Censurato
220. Thank you for the fact that I realize how unthankful I actually am to God. ~Francesca Censurato
221. Thank you for Francescas Censurato. She is one of the most influential people in my life. ~ltb
222. Thank you for Francescas prayers for my son Christopher. Their love for each other started when he was a baby in her arms. ~ltb
223. Thank you for Francesca's amazing kindness to us as a family. ~ltb
224. Thank you for her zest for life and her ability and willingness to move to Ohio to be near people she adores and loves deeply. ~ltb
225. Thank you that she will be working for Twin Valley Coffee in Wellington, Ohio. She will be our first employee out of state. Woot, woot! ~ltb
226. Thank you for the robotics meeting and the energy in the room. Wow! ~ltb
227. Thank you for my time exercising this morning. May it be a discipline this year. ~ltb
228. Thank you for this gorgeous spot in my yard where I can actually work and enjoy being outside. Please keep the bird poop away! ~ltb
229. Thank you for the cool air. ~ltb
230. Thank you for the excitement of Wider. ~ltb
231. Thank you for my time with Brenda Lee. Thank you for how she knows how to meet needs. ~ltb
232. Thank you for new moments and new seasons. ~ltb
233. Thank you for wisdom in navigating the onslaught of attacks and reminding me what my identity is in. ~ltb




Tuesday, August 26, 2015
202. Thank you for the time of exercise this morning! ~ltb
203. Thank you for the time with Anna Glick today. ~ltb
204. Thank you for Robyn's perspective. ~ltb
205. Thank you for Kathryn's experience this morning on a surfboard. ~ltb
206. Thank you for Geoff's beautiful spirit. ~ltb
207. Thank you for  the paint job Geoff did on the back of the shed. ~ltb
208. Thank you for another great day with Primrose and Fergie. ~ltb
209. Thank you for Chris' continued explanation of addiction, it is so interesting and helpful. ~ltb
210. Thank you for Lynn's positive outlook on life. He is an amazing individual. ~ltb
211. Thank you for life. ~Jesse
212. Thank you for baseball. ~Jesse
213. Thank you for mom, friends, family, Theo. ~Jesse
214. Thank you for christianity, for God. ~Jesse

Monday, August 25, 2015
172. Thank you for a beautiful morning kayaking with Terri. ~ltb
173. Thank you for a great conversation with Tiffany Shoffner. ~ltb
174. Thank you that you are going to surround Adam and Tiffany with comfort at the loss of Adam's cousin, Emily. You are just as sad! ~ltb
175. Thank you for my time with Kathryn. I can not believe she has found her alter ego. ~ltb
176. Thank you for my lunch break with the infamous Kimmy! I love her. ~ltb
177. Thank you for Melody Stevens and her excitement for her children and their independent lives! ~ltb
178. Thank you for the beautiful, hot day! I love heat! ~ltb
179. Thank you for the new kitchen faucet! ~ltb
180. Thank you that Lynn is such a handy man. Thank you that he can purchase a faucet and put it in place within a two hour period. ~ltb
181. Thank you for my in-laws and our Sunday evening times. ~ltb
190. Thank you for little Theo's love of singing, that sweet little voice that just wants to sing. ~ltb
191. Thank you for Kathryn's love and zest for life. ~ltb
192. Thank you for Lynn's commitment to life. ~ltb
193. Thank you for all that I am learning about addiction through Chris. He is such an excellent teacher. ~ltb
194. Thank you for Geoff's kindness to me. He never disrespects me. ~ltb
195. Thank you that Nicky Sue and her father love each other. ~ltb
196. Thank you that Nicky Sue loves filling orders and is doing exceptionally at it. ~ltb
197. Thank you for the pool passes and Mohler children! ~ltb
198. Thank you for tomatoes from others to make into sauce. ~ltb
199. Thank you that Linda Hertzler made it around French Creek! ;) ~ltb
200. Thank you that I woke up this morning. ~ltb
201. Thank you for Psalm 118! ~ltb

My goal is 1,000 entries.  It is inspired by Ann Voskamp's beautifully written book, "One Thousand gifts."

Add to this "Thank You!" list. Send your entry to lynneburkholder@gmail.com and I will add it to the "Thank You!" list. Or if you are friends with me on facebook, you can let me know there on the last one posted.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Week Two: Day Two Continuum.....Thank You List


Tuesday, August 26, 2015
202. Thank you for the time of exercise this morning! ~ltb
203. Thank you for the time with Anna Glick today. ~ltb
204. Thank you for Robyn's perspective. ~ltb
205. Thank you for Kathryn's experience this morning on a surfboard. ~ltb
206. Thank you for Geoff's beautiful spirit. ~ltb
207. Thank you for  the paint job Geoff did on the back of the shed. ~ltb
208. Thank you for another great day with Primrose and Fergie. ~ltb
209. Thank you for Chris' continued explanation of addiction, it is so interesting and helpful. ~ltb
210. Thank you for Lynn's positive outlook on life. He is an amazing individual. ~ltb
211. Thank you for life. ~Jesse
212. Thank you for baseball. ~Jesse
213. Thank you for mom, friends, family, Theo. ~Jesse
214. Thank you for christianity, for God. ~Jesse


Monday, August 25, 2015
172. Thank you for a beautiful morning kayaking with Terri. ~ltb
173. Thank you for a great conversation with Tiffany Shoffner. ~ltb
174. Thank you that you are going to surround Adam and Tiffany with comfort at the loss of Adam's cousin, Emily. You are just as sad! ~ltb
175. Thank you for my time with Kathryn. I can not believe she has found her alter ego. ~ltb
176. Thank you for my lunch break with the infamous Kimmy! I love her. ~ltb
177. Thank you for Melody Stevens and her excitement for her children and their independent lives! ~ltb
178. Thank you for the beautiful, hot day! I love heat! ~ltb
179. Thank you for the new kitchen faucet! ~ltb
180. Thank you that Lynn is such a handy man. Thank you that he can purchase a faucet and put it in place within a two hour period. ~ltb
181. Thank you for my in-laws and our Sunday evening times. ~ltb
190. Thank you for little Theo's love of singing, that sweet little voice that just wants to sing. ~ltb
191. Thank you for Kathryn's love and zest for life. ~ltb
192. Thank you for Lynn's commitment to life. ~ltb
193. Thank you for all that I am learning about addiction through Chris. He is such an excellent teacher. ~ltb
194. Thank you for Geoff's kindness to me. He never disrespects me. ~ltb
195. Thank you that Nicky Sue and her father love each other. ~ltb
196. Thank you that Nicky Sue loves filling orders and is doing exceptionally at it. ~ltb
197. Thank you for the pool passes and Mohler children! ~ltb
198. Thank you for tomatoes from others to make into sauce. ~ltb
199. Thank you that Linda Hertzler made it around French Creek! ;) ~ltb
200. Thank you that I woke up this morning. ~ltb
201. Thank you for Psalm 118! ~ltb

My goal is 1,000 entries.  It is inspired by Ann Voskamp's beautifully written book, "One Thousand gifts."

Add to this "Thank You!" list. Send your entry to lynneburkholder@gmail.com and I will add it to the "Thank You!" list. Or if you are friends with me on facebook, you can let me know there on the last one posted.