Thursday, August 27, 2015

Day 232 Say What You Mean And Mean What You Say

Nicole Suzanne uses words wisely....

August 27, 2015
Day 232

When we talk we use words. (I am the high commander of the obvious) We use them based on what we know their meaning is and we are attempting to match them to our thoughts. But my word choices often betray my thoughts. Have you ever seen the Wind Tunnel Money Machine? The goal is to grab as much money in the wind tunnel? Have a look - https://youtu.be/Izmf_hGr0fk . This is me with words. I am grabbing for words swirling all around and just grabbing. Is it any wonder then that I am amazed at what you think you heard me say and the complete disconnect of what I really meant? So often, in fact, 99 percent of the time, it is my fault and not yours. I am a sloppy speaker and unfortunately it is a result of sloppy thinking. I might have just grabbed the word that was closest yet not the word that was the most fitting. To move in a direction of clarity is a real need, complete intentionality is so important. And so this is my pursuit. But it is hard work.

Have you ever listened to one of Nicole's dreams?
I have endeavored to increase my vocabulary ever since my early 20's. Many times I would have a dictionary in hand, especially, while reading Russian novels. (just go ahead and ask me what they are....it's really not that impressive) This was only helpful if I used the word that I had just learned. But oft it did not go so well. The word was apt and fitting but not for the moment. The recipient would look at me like I was wearing over-sized shoulder pads with big puffy hair, just a tad out of place.

I am also trying to think before I speak. But, I should just give up on this one, it's boring. It means taking time. Speed in thought, speed in action, speed in deed (we are not necessarily talking "good" deed) often is my priority. But, this speed drives me quickly to the wrong place, wrong word, and wrong thought. I am on your left, in a huff, passing you to reach the stop light faster. Therefore, I do have many accidents.


She is something
I love words. To sit and look at a dictionary with a cup of tea on a rainy day, well, what more could one ask for. Look at her, you murmur, in sarcasm, she should have the right word for every moment. True that. But have you been to my house on a rainy day lately? Just peek in and look at me. You'll probably catch me slouching with my mouth wide open.





She is a good listener.
To choose the correct word choice for the current thought is difficult. I see words swimming all around me in a deep lake full of choices. I want to be the best fisherwoman.The problem is, I hate fishing.

But I will remain in pursuit of clarity and continue to at least "think" of working on expanding my vocabulary, my word choice and slowing down. Until then, I am begging God for grace, cause baby, it's not looking good.


Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Day 231 Bowl Full Of Mush

August 27,  2015
Day 231


Early morning exercises are awesome but by the end of the day my mind is a bowl of mush. Especially since we went to Just Mom's and we ordered bacon and cheese french fries. Now my mind is a container of misdirected mush.

Good night.

Week Two: Day Three Continuum...Thank You List

Wednesday, August 27, 2015
215. Thank you for the breath that I am breathing. ~Francesca Censurato (She ismoving to Ohio! What an amazing woman to our family. She is our very own intercessor and she to other families is the same.)
216. Thank you for the colors that my eyes see.  ~Francesca Censurato  (She suffers with a lack of poor eyesight)
217. Thank you for people like Lynne in my life. ~Francesca Censurato (This really feels like a brag moment....sorry....)
218. Thank you for the people that love me that let me love them. ~Francesca Censurato
219. Thank you for God. ~Francesca Censurato
220. Thank you for the fact that I realize how unthankful I actually am to God. ~Francesca Censurato
221. Thank you for Francescas Censurato. She is one of the most influential people in my life. ~ltb
222. Thank you for Francescas prayers for my son Christopher. Their love for each other started when he was a baby in her arms. ~ltb
223. Thank you for Francesca's amazing kindness to us as a family. ~ltb
224. Thank you for her zest for life and her ability and willingness to move to Ohio to be near people she adores and loves deeply. ~ltb
225. Thank you that she will be working for Twin Valley Coffee in Wellington, Ohio. She will be our first employee out of state. Woot, woot! ~ltb
226. Thank you for the robotics meeting and the energy in the room. Wow! ~ltb
227. Thank you for my time exercising this morning. May it be a discipline this year. ~ltb
228. Thank you for this gorgeous spot in my yard where I can actually work and enjoy being outside. Please keep the bird poop away! ~ltb
229. Thank you for the cool air. ~ltb
230. Thank you for the excitement of Wider. ~ltb
231. Thank you for my time with Brenda Lee. Thank you for how she knows how to meet needs. ~ltb
232. Thank you for new moments and new seasons. ~ltb
233. Thank you for wisdom in navigating the onslaught of attacks and reminding me what my identity is in. ~ltb




Tuesday, August 26, 2015
202. Thank you for the time of exercise this morning! ~ltb
203. Thank you for the time with Anna Glick today. ~ltb
204. Thank you for Robyn's perspective. ~ltb
205. Thank you for Kathryn's experience this morning on a surfboard. ~ltb
206. Thank you for Geoff's beautiful spirit. ~ltb
207. Thank you for  the paint job Geoff did on the back of the shed. ~ltb
208. Thank you for another great day with Primrose and Fergie. ~ltb
209. Thank you for Chris' continued explanation of addiction, it is so interesting and helpful. ~ltb
210. Thank you for Lynn's positive outlook on life. He is an amazing individual. ~ltb
211. Thank you for life. ~Jesse
212. Thank you for baseball. ~Jesse
213. Thank you for mom, friends, family, Theo. ~Jesse
214. Thank you for christianity, for God. ~Jesse

Monday, August 25, 2015
172. Thank you for a beautiful morning kayaking with Terri. ~ltb
173. Thank you for a great conversation with Tiffany Shoffner. ~ltb
174. Thank you that you are going to surround Adam and Tiffany with comfort at the loss of Adam's cousin, Emily. You are just as sad! ~ltb
175. Thank you for my time with Kathryn. I can not believe she has found her alter ego. ~ltb
176. Thank you for my lunch break with the infamous Kimmy! I love her. ~ltb
177. Thank you for Melody Stevens and her excitement for her children and their independent lives! ~ltb
178. Thank you for the beautiful, hot day! I love heat! ~ltb
179. Thank you for the new kitchen faucet! ~ltb
180. Thank you that Lynn is such a handy man. Thank you that he can purchase a faucet and put it in place within a two hour period. ~ltb
181. Thank you for my in-laws and our Sunday evening times. ~ltb
190. Thank you for little Theo's love of singing, that sweet little voice that just wants to sing. ~ltb
191. Thank you for Kathryn's love and zest for life. ~ltb
192. Thank you for Lynn's commitment to life. ~ltb
193. Thank you for all that I am learning about addiction through Chris. He is such an excellent teacher. ~ltb
194. Thank you for Geoff's kindness to me. He never disrespects me. ~ltb
195. Thank you that Nicky Sue and her father love each other. ~ltb
196. Thank you that Nicky Sue loves filling orders and is doing exceptionally at it. ~ltb
197. Thank you for the pool passes and Mohler children! ~ltb
198. Thank you for tomatoes from others to make into sauce. ~ltb
199. Thank you that Linda Hertzler made it around French Creek! ;) ~ltb
200. Thank you that I woke up this morning. ~ltb
201. Thank you for Psalm 118! ~ltb

My goal is 1,000 entries.  It is inspired by Ann Voskamp's beautifully written book, "One Thousand gifts."

Add to this "Thank You!" list. Send your entry to lynneburkholder@gmail.com and I will add it to the "Thank You!" list. Or if you are friends with me on facebook, you can let me know there on the last one posted.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Week Two: Day Two Continuum.....Thank You List


Tuesday, August 26, 2015
202. Thank you for the time of exercise this morning! ~ltb
203. Thank you for the time with Anna Glick today. ~ltb
204. Thank you for Robyn's perspective. ~ltb
205. Thank you for Kathryn's experience this morning on a surfboard. ~ltb
206. Thank you for Geoff's beautiful spirit. ~ltb
207. Thank you for  the paint job Geoff did on the back of the shed. ~ltb
208. Thank you for another great day with Primrose and Fergie. ~ltb
209. Thank you for Chris' continued explanation of addiction, it is so interesting and helpful. ~ltb
210. Thank you for Lynn's positive outlook on life. He is an amazing individual. ~ltb
211. Thank you for life. ~Jesse
212. Thank you for baseball. ~Jesse
213. Thank you for mom, friends, family, Theo. ~Jesse
214. Thank you for christianity, for God. ~Jesse


Monday, August 25, 2015
172. Thank you for a beautiful morning kayaking with Terri. ~ltb
173. Thank you for a great conversation with Tiffany Shoffner. ~ltb
174. Thank you that you are going to surround Adam and Tiffany with comfort at the loss of Adam's cousin, Emily. You are just as sad! ~ltb
175. Thank you for my time with Kathryn. I can not believe she has found her alter ego. ~ltb
176. Thank you for my lunch break with the infamous Kimmy! I love her. ~ltb
177. Thank you for Melody Stevens and her excitement for her children and their independent lives! ~ltb
178. Thank you for the beautiful, hot day! I love heat! ~ltb
179. Thank you for the new kitchen faucet! ~ltb
180. Thank you that Lynn is such a handy man. Thank you that he can purchase a faucet and put it in place within a two hour period. ~ltb
181. Thank you for my in-laws and our Sunday evening times. ~ltb
190. Thank you for little Theo's love of singing, that sweet little voice that just wants to sing. ~ltb
191. Thank you for Kathryn's love and zest for life. ~ltb
192. Thank you for Lynn's commitment to life. ~ltb
193. Thank you for all that I am learning about addiction through Chris. He is such an excellent teacher. ~ltb
194. Thank you for Geoff's kindness to me. He never disrespects me. ~ltb
195. Thank you that Nicky Sue and her father love each other. ~ltb
196. Thank you that Nicky Sue loves filling orders and is doing exceptionally at it. ~ltb
197. Thank you for the pool passes and Mohler children! ~ltb
198. Thank you for tomatoes from others to make into sauce. ~ltb
199. Thank you that Linda Hertzler made it around French Creek! ;) ~ltb
200. Thank you that I woke up this morning. ~ltb
201. Thank you for Psalm 118! ~ltb

My goal is 1,000 entries.  It is inspired by Ann Voskamp's beautifully written book, "One Thousand gifts."

Add to this "Thank You!" list. Send your entry to lynneburkholder@gmail.com and I will add it to the "Thank You!" list. Or if you are friends with me on facebook, you can let me know there on the last one posted.

Day 231 Key Witness

Moose Pond, ME. The sun shone despite the rain.


August 26, 2015
Day 231

So, "Stocks around the world tumbled in volatile trading on Monday, leaving investors to wonder how much government officials can and will do to insulate the global economy from the turmoil. The upheaval in the markets began with another rout in China that drew comparisons to the 1987 crash in the United States known as 'Black Monday.' " ( New York Times by Nathaniel Popper and Neil Goughaug. 23, 2015)

Give thanks to the Lord
For He is Good
His love endures forever.  Ps. 118


Um, are you sure about this? I mean, honestly, this is bad, really bad. Give thanks to the Lord? China is kind of an important player in our economy. So, giving thanks to the Lord, for He is good, seems, well, polly-ann-ish. There is worry material and then there is worry material. And this is panic material. Do not worry about tomorrow is a verse probably written with only minor stuff in mind. My finger is going over this hole in the dike. Folks, it is time to worry! Can you imagine if we wouldn't???

"Islamic State militants have razed a fifth-century Roman Catholic monastery and blown up one of the best-preserved first-century temples in Palmyra, the ancient Syrian city that is one of the world’s most important archaeological sites, according to government officials and local activists.

Much like the grinding slaughter of human beings, the ravaging of irreplaceable antiquities in Syria and Iraq has become something of a grim wartime routine. Yet the cumulative destruction of antiquities has reached staggering levels that represent an irreversible loss to world heritage and future scholarship, archaeological experts and antiquities officials say. (New York Times by Anne Barnardaug. 24, 2015)

Let Israel say, His love endures forever.
Let the House of Aaron say, His love endures forever.
Let those who fear the Lord say,
His love endures forever. Ps. 118

His love endures, the "grinding slaughter of human beings." The Merriam Webster dictionary says that to endure is to experience pain or suffering for a long time.

His love endures the "ravaging of irreplaceable antiquities in Syria and Iraq..." The Merriam Webster dictionary says that to endure is to continue to exist in the same state or condition.

Is it not enough, to keep us from worrying, knowing that His love endures forever?
When God tells us not to worry, He watched every detail play out before it even happened. In every court around the country, He is the key witness!

In my anguish I cried and he answered by setting me free. Ps. 118

The Lord is with me, I will not be afraid
What can man do to me?
The Lord is with me, He is my helper.
I will look in triumph on my enemies. Ps. 118


my faith is small, my worry large, but I am going to have a go at it.....
i give you thanks, Lord.










Monday, August 24, 2015

Week Two: Day One Continuum....Thank You List!



Thank you!

Monday, August 25, 2015
172. Thank you for a beautiful morning kayaking with Terri. ~ltb
173. Thank you for a great conversation with Tiffany Shoffner. ~ltb
174. Thank you that you are going to surround Adam and Tiffany with comfort at the loss of Adam's cousin, Emily. You are just as sad! ~ltb
175. Thank you for my time with Kathryn. I can not believe she has found her alter ego. ~ltb
176. Thank you for my lunch break with the infamous Kimmy! I love her. ~ltb
177. Thank you for Melody Stevens and her excitement for her children and their independent lives! ~ltb
178. Thank you for the beautiful, hot day! I love heat! ~ltb
179. Thank you for the new kitchen faucet! ~ltb
180. Thank you that Lynn is such a handy man. Thank you that he can purchase a faucet and put it in place within a two hour period. ~ltb
181. Thank you for my in-laws and our Sunday evening times. ~ltb
190. Thank you for little Theo's love of singing, that sweet little voice that just wants to sing. ~ltb
191. Thank you for Kathryn's love and zest for life. ~ltb
192. Thank you for Lynn's commitment to life. ~ltb
193. Thank you for all that I am learning about addiction through Chris. He is such an excellent teacher. ~ltb
194. Thank you for Geoff's kindness to me. He never disrespects me. ~ltb
195. Thank you that Nicky Sue and her father love each other. ~ltb
196. Thank you that Nicky Sue loves filling orders and is doing exceptionally at it. ~ltb
197. Thank you for the pool passes and Mohler children! ~ltb
198. Thank you for tomatoes from others to make into sauce. ~ltb
199. Thank you that Linda Hertzler made it around French Creek! ;) ~ltb
200. Thank you that I woke up this morning. ~ltb
201. Thank you for Psalm 118! ~ltb

My goal is 1,000 entries.  It is inspired by Ann Voskamp's beautifully written book, "One Thousand gifts."

Add to this "Thank You!" list. Send your entry to lynneburkholder@gmail.com and I will add it to the "Thank You!" list. Or if you are friends with me on facebook, you can let me know there on the last one posted.


Day 230 Listening to You

August 25, 2015
Day 230

Listening to this guy takes no work, pure pleasure
I am listening to you. I try hard to hear what you are saying beyond the words you are using. I take in your nonverbal cues. I am endeavoring to truly listen. What you have to say is important to me and important regardless of me. My goal, as I am listening, is to slay the obstacles and make a clean cut to your intent regardless of the words you might sloppily be using.

I am so aware of my listening inadequacies. Sometimes I am packaging thoughts while trying to focus on what you are saying. I just vacationed and I have throwbacks that I am enjoying. That far away look lands in Moose Pond, ME. Those thoughts are packaged and labeled, "For a Dreary Day."

I also am planning for the new Wider school year. Planning for science has me stoked. All things biodiversity, ecosystems, habitat loss, Clean Air Act... these are categories that are right at the forefront of my mind labeled, "Wildlife Semester." For you, I will put them aside. Please go on and share.

Oh boy, here comes a thought I want to interject. But I realize it is a thought that directs the conversation in my direction, it is a trap. Sometimes I try to be clever and deliver this thought in such a way hoping you will not notice. But you and I both know this is a selfish move on my part. So, I will endeavor to stay quiet. Please, continue.

I want to know more about you. You matter. Listening is key and I want to listen well. You really are worth it.